Half Way Home!
by Lynn-Claire Davis
Gabrielle Books, 1995
Reviewed by Barbara Free, M.A.
A copy of this slim
volume has been in the Operation Identity Library since it was donated by Sally File, the
founder of O.I. The book is, in fact, dedicated to her and some others, and she is quoted
frequently in the book. It is not new, but it is still an excellent guide to search and reunion
etiquette; but it is much more than that. Addressed primarily from the adult adoptees
point of view, it also discusses birth parents and adoptive parents concerns in thoughtful
ways. Although we have more resources and tools now to make search easier for many (not for everyone!),
the dynamics and feelings remain the same, and even the relative speed with which one is able to locate
a person now makes the initial reunion more fragile, because there is not as much time along the way to
process feelings, to explore fantasies, wishes, hopes, and needs, and perhaps fewer other people with
whom to discuss the search and reunion process.
Perhaps this book should be re-issued, or even updated and republished,
because it contains a lot of sound advice and brings up many issues that are just as important now as
they were in 1995 when it was published. Although there have been many books about search and reunion,
either first-person stories or guidebooks, this one seems in some ways more complete than most. As the
author states in the first few pages, We discover how little society and professionals know about
our issues. ... So, in addition to searching, we campaign along the way to educate a blind, incredibly
ignorant public. ... We as a group complete our searches in a matter of minutes, days, weeks, months,
or years. The longer it takes, the more we grow and learn. We seldom realize searching is merely Volume
One in a series.
She goes on the explore the feelings as well as hopes that the person
searching might have, and also the person who is found. She discusses early on the possibility of
finding that the person for whom one is searching is already deceased. Although this is more likely
when an adoptee is searching for a birth parent, it does also happen when a birth parent is searching
for relinquished offspring. In that case, she encourages people to find other birth family, to meet
siblings, aunts, uncles, grandparents, whoever might have known the person well. She also addresses
the possibility that the adoptee being searched for does not knew of their own adoption, though that is
fairly rare these days. She discusses writing a letter versus calling the person, and also having
someone else make the initial telephone call. Her ideas about who would and who would not be
appropriate persons to make the call are quite insightful, and have rarely been addressed in print.
She even gives an example of a telephone call to ascertain whether an
adoptee knows they are adopted, by disguising the call as an opinion poll, but warns that the birth
mother should not be the one to make such a call, because she probably cannot sound objective and
unemotional. She says both males and females will respond in more depth to a female caller. Then
she has some suggestions for what to do if the adoptee seems unaware of their adoption, and states
that the birth parents are not responsible for such a lifelong deception.
The author also recommends numerous books for the searcher to read,
and some to recommend to the one found, if s/he has not already read them. Again, there are
numerous books that have been published since this one, but her recommendations are still very sound,
and many of the books are timeless in their insight.
One of her most profound bits of advice is a list of DO NOTS about search,
including, DO NOT enter into a search with an attitude of being owed for what you have
suffered or what a search has cost you. It can get out of hand and pervade your contacts, which can
work against you and your goals. There is a difference between your right to know and being owed
something. That advice alone is worth the cost of the book!
The author also shares several persons stories at times to
illustrate various situations, and she discusses at length the issue of split loyalties
that many adoptees face, particularly if adoptive parents are not supportive of search and reunion,
or the adoptee assumes they would not be supportive. She offers some excellent ideas on how to resolve
such dilemmas. Finally, she discusses genetic attraction, which often gets interpreted as sexual
attraction, because we have no other societal frame of reference for the yearning to be physically
close to the person weve found. She stresses the importance of both honesty and courtesy, and
the patience to take the time to develop reunion relationships slowly. Just because persons may be
biologically related does not mean they instantly understand or agree with each other.
This book ought to be recommended reading for anyone just starting their
search. Even if you completed your search years ago, this book is worth reading, both for your own
affirmation and for help in continuing relationships, as well as finding the words to describe your
situation to others in your life.
That said, it seems a shame it is no longer in print. Existing copies
are available from various second-hand dealers via Amazon.com, e.g., so anyone reading this, particularly
therapists or those active in adoption support groups, might do well to obtain a copy. For members of
O.I., the library copy is available to borrow.
Excerpted from the October 2014
edition of the Operation Identity Newsletter
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